Bila NAMA jadi isu~

BISMILLAHIRRAHMANIRRAHIM...

Alhamdulillah masih hidup lagi ^___^

ASMIDAR KHAUTSAR

adakah korang rasa nama di atas ni nama lelaki???

Sebentar tadi aku request join 1 group di fb yg aku rasa universal (berdasarkan nama grup tu) dan salah satu member group tu pun add aku.... Jadi aku pun bersiar-siar la dalam group tu dan baru aku perasan 1 hal. Kenapa aku sorang jak perempuan yang jadi member dalam group ni??????

Musykil. Jadi aku pun bertanya. Kenapa group tu tiada member perempuan?

Dan ada orang yang bagi respon pertanyaanku.

Eh, perempuan ka pulak ni? Ingat lelaki tadi...

Okeh ini tersangatlah kuyakkkkkk!! Malu termasuk dalam group all-boys!!!!!! Dan lepas tu aku pun cepat-cepat leave group tu..








Seriously.......

Nama aku tu macam lelaki meh? :'(

Ok terkilan... Because I dont think so...

Boleh-boleh pulak orang fikir aku ni lelaki sebab nama aku :'(

haduyai........

Tapi ndak pa!!!! Yang penting aku sudah kurang 2 kilo!!!!!!!! HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA (tiba-tiba tukar topik)

Nampaknya diet yang dijalankan berjalan dengan lancar. InsyaAllah akan diteruskan sampai ke tahap yang sepatutnya ^________________________^

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Meninggalkan SESUATU kerana...

BISMILLAHIRRAHMANIRRAHIM... ALHAMDULILLAHI ROBBIL ALAMIN WASSALATU WASSALAMU ALA ASYRAFIL ANBIYA IWAL MURSALIN WA ALA ALIHI WASOHBIHI AJMAIN AMMA BA'DU

Eh oh y'all!!! ^____^

Sekarang aku sedang dibanjiri dengan kerja yang bertan-tan banyaknya.... Why?

LECTURERS~ LOL

 

SEBAB BENDA DI ATAS NI LAHH!!!

But let's look on the bright side, I'll just have to undergo 1 more week before freedom!!!!!!!!!!!! I mean half freedom since there's still exam of course... :)

Jadi sementara ada masa terluang, menyinggah ke sini....

Korang pernah tidak cuba tinggalkan sesuatu benda yang korang suka?

Susah kan.... Yeah, that's what happening to me right now :(

Jangan salah faham pulak, tinggalkan BENDA okeh, bukan ORANG haha...

Dalam kes aku ni, dia sebenarnya bukan benda tapi sesuatu yang aku lakukan. 

I've been doing this one thing like, almost for my entire life and then suddenly one day, I found out that I need to stop doing it. Okeh mungkin kurangkan.

*Sorry for the language transition here and there (#_#)

Mula-mula tu aku rasa susah sangat. Sampai sekarang pun masih susah sebenarnya. Well, come to think of it it's hard to leave something which you have been doing since the day you could remember. Especially, when it is something that lives up your day and make it more fun.

I keep thinking, why exactly do I need to stop from doing this, it's not like I'm killing people. I'm just doing something that I like. It cheers me up.  But after knowing this and that, I have come to a point of realising that no matter how much I argue about what I have done, what is wrong is still wrong and vice versa. It is not actually wrong, but what made the thing wrong is that when I show it to everyone else instead of keeping it to myself. Then, I have decided not to do it anymore. At least not in front of people. 

So in the end, eventhough it is difficult, I guess I'll just have to try and cope up with things. 

Lepas tu masa sedih-sedih, cekewa dan sebagainya (ya, aku tau aku cengeng), ternampak pulak satu hadis Rasulullah ni,

“Sesungguhnya tidaklah engkau meninggalkan sesuatu kerana Allah ‘azza wa jalla, melainkan Allah akan menggantikannya dengan sesuatu yang lebih baik.” [HR. Wakii' dalam "Az-Zuhd" 2/68/2, Ahmad 5/ 363, Al-Qudhaa'i dalam "Musnad As-Syihab" 1135]

and it made my day ^___^

Jadi kalau aku, bukan aku jak, kita2 semua, tinggalkan sesuatu tu kerana Allah, InsyaAllah mudah-mudahan Allah gantikannya dengan sesuatu yang lebih baik ^_^

p/s: I guess I'll just have to let everything rests in Allah's hand and be prepared for what's coming up next! :)

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A SECRET BOX IN A LITTLE GIRL'S HEART...

BISMILLAHIRRAHMANIRRAHIM...


Allah... You know this servant best... Even better than herself...

There was this one little girl...

When it comes to feelings, she got confused with her own...

And she didn't know why...

She wished she could tell...

She wished to know why...

It's been years... since she was still just a little girl, with ponytail hair crying on her mother's lap, getting to know the world around her...

It's been as long as she could remember when she said she liked that someone...

Someone whom she rarely met, but oftenly think of...

Not caring whether he like her or hate her...

All she ever knew was him...

There won't be anyone except him...

That feeling that the small little girl kept...

never fades for so long until it came to a time...

when she thought everything was too impossible to happen...

What she felt was too good to be true...

And so, SHE LET GO...

Without ever letting him know about what she felt...

Eventhough they still meet each other but very seldom...

Everything was left to be...

The girl moved on with her life... Leaving the past behind...

Met, fell for this one and dissapointed.

Fell for that one and dissapointed again.

Still, never tired of searching.

Then, she realised that it's time for her to STOP.

Stop looking, stop finding, and stop searching.

So there she was, waiting.

However, through all the years that had passed, there is ONE thing that still has not changed...

Her heart still skipped a beat everytime she saw that one person she once knew...

She still did not know what she should do upon seeing that person she once like...

And still, she could not find the reason why...

She told everyone he is not the one...

Even the last resort will not be him...

The person whom once she thought of the most became the person she did not even want to think of...

But above all that reasons, still, her heart beated fast... everytime she saw that someone... eventhough he never looked at her.

Eventhough he never knew...

Up till now, she still can't find any answer...

Why...

Why is it even her own heart could not explain what was happening..........

And there she was....

WAITING....

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Confession of A _________ Heart

BISMILLAHIRRAHMANIRRAHIM...

ALHAMDULILLAHI ROBBIL ALAMIN WASSALATU WASSALAMU ALA ASYRAFIL ANBIYA IWAL MURSALIN WA ALA ALIHI WASOHBIHI AJMAIN AMMA BA'DU

Alhamdulillah Allah sihatkan tubuh badan, sempurnakan segala-gala yang diperlukan untuk terus bernafas pada hari ini. Dan hari-hari seterusnya :)

Tiba-tiba terfikir pasal topik confess atau meluahkan ni. Pernahkah kita melalui atau menghadapi situasi ini? Tak kisahlah sama ada korang orang yang meluahkan atau orang yang luahkan dengan korang. Pernah?

Aku? Mungkin belum sampai lagi ke tahap ingin meluahkan. 

Meluahkan perasaan sayang atau cinta itu memang biasa, tapi pernah dengar pasal orang yang 'confess' kebencian?? Haha... Aku belum pernah lagi la nampak dengan mata kepala sendiri kalau masuk topik meluahkan kebencian.

Kenapa kita perlu simpan rasa cinta/sayang?

Perlukah rasa itu wujud dalam diri kita?

Hakikatnya, kita cuma makhluk Allah yang dikurniakan dengan fitrah yang pelbagai. Antaranya ialah, memiliki rasa cinta.

Salahkah bercinta?

Bagi aku tidak.

Cuma bercinta akan jadi salah bila kita buat perkara yang Allah tak suka masa bercinta.

Bercinta itu maksiat!

Hamboiii ikut sedap mulut jak ko kan bercakap~ (ni la si wani ni..) 

Bercinta itu bukan satu maksiat, cuma perbuatan-perbuatan semasa bercinta itu yang boleh menjadikannya satu maksiat.

So, sendiri mau ingat la okeh ;)

Sebagaimana firman Allah dalam Surah Al-Israa' ayat 32:

Dan janganlah kamu menghampiri zina. Sesungguhnya zina itu adalah satu perbuatan yang keji dan satu jalan yang jahat (membawa kerosakan).

Aku bukan mengajar ek, aku cuma kongsi apa yang aku tahu jak. Diri sendiri ni pun ndak pandai jugak :)

Talking about confession, perlukah kita bagi tahu orang yang kita suka tu yang kita ni suka dia?

Itu soalan yang aku sendiri pun tak tau mau bagi respon apa.

Soalan ni termasuk dalam golongan subjektif. Different people with different opinions. Cuma kalau bagi aku, mungkin kita patut lihat dari sudut kesan sesuatu benda tu. kalau kita bagi tahu dengan orang tu, apa kesan positif yang kita akan dapat dan orang tu akan dapat. Macam tulah kali. Kena pandai-pandai la timbang tara baik buruknya.

As for me, I don't know.........

Yeah.... I don't know....

I just.... don't..... 

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TETANUS, paku bertuah! / The Real Thing is...

BISMILLAHIRRAHMANIRRAHIM...

ALHAMDULILLAHI ROBBIL ALAMIN WASSALATU WASSSALAMU ALA ASYRAFIL ANBIYA IWAL MURSALIN, WA ALA ALIHI WASOHBIHI AJMAIN AMMA BA'DU...

Hari ni setelah berpuluh tahun selepas mendapatkan suntikan tetanus yang pertama dalam hidup, aku mendapatkan suntikan itu untuk kali keduanya. Hari ini.

Tangan masih lenguh lagi. Che... trep. Entah kenapa tetiba pulak paku tu merempat di tengah-tengah jalan Karamunsing tu dan menjadikan kakiku sebagai mangsa untuk ditembusi! Akhirnya terpaksa la dapatkan suntikan tetanus tu. Takut2 virus tu akan tersebar dan berlaku perkara yang tidak diingini. ALHAMDULILLAH ^__________^ Allah permudahkan segalanya.

Dapat bercuti di hujung minggu ni, harap2 aku dapat rehatkan otak yang 'hang' akibat berlakunya pemprosesan maklumat secara ekstrem disebabkan KKBI yang 'last minute' baru mau buat =.=' salah sendiri la tu kan... 

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"Rasanya kau ni selama-lamanya akan forever alone."

I've got no comment on this when people told me about it. Well, actually... Some?? comments maybe? 

Kalau Allah rasa lagi baik untuk aku forever alone, itulah jalan terbaik dan aku redha :)

Kalau Allah rasa sudah sampai masanya untuk aku perlukan seseorang, mesti Dia akan hantar lah jugak tu someone kan.

Tapi kalau ndak hantar2, mesti kena ganti dengan sesuatu yang lagi bagus.

Jadi aku ndak payah mau sibuk2 berfikir dan menunggu.

Jalani hidup seperti biasa. Don't worry, be happy ^_^

Plus, I don't think I need one.

Maybe don't deserve one. Hehe..... Ndak pa la... 

I am happy with what I have and could not ask for more from Him  because He will always give me what I need most even before I asked for it :)

So..... yes.... I am happy and feel blessed being given everything from the very first day I came to this world up till today and until the last day I breath... InsyaAllah... 

Biarlah orang kata aku forever alone. Because I know, the real thing is, I AM NEVER ALONE :) NOT EVEN FOR A SECOND.... THANK YOU ALLAH... for everything... It teaches me to become stronger (and i hope, wiser... haha) ^_________^

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