A Better Person...

BISMILLAHIRRAHMANIRRAHIM...


"its never too late to be a better person than what or who you were yesterday..."

i hope this quote is true

because i want to be better

the best... if possible...

i really do...

I wish to have the love, luck, and happiness that all my friends have...
But, I never wanted to feel their pain, frustration, disappointment... the dark side of their life...
Such a selfish thought... isn't it?

Was I born this way?
To be selfish all the time...
Not to think of others but myself... and nothing else...
Am i that heartless...?

i wish i could be a better person. for me and everyone else...

why can't you just change, wani... being like this.. you are becoming a burden. No, you ARE a burden.

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Once a LIAR, always a LIAR.

IT'S A FACT.

My sense of trust is GONE.
And I'm pretty sure it will NEVER come back.
Not to someone, not to anyone, not to everyone else.
I LOST it.
Just because of a simple LIE.
I thought you are the only person who won't lie to me.
My BIGGEST mistake is believing the fact that you WON'T lie to me.
It's good for me to know that you lied, so I know that I shouldn't trust you...
Or anyone else. EVER.
That's it.
I was about to trust you actually...
But then... YOU LIED.

p/s: Don't pay any attention to this. It's not important. Really, it's not.

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MENYEMAK!

BISMILLAHIRRAHMANIRRAHIM...

Sebenarnya aku xtau jgk mo ckp apa... tpi sja mo menyemak jgk.. haha... exam is around the corner and guess what, i havent even start doing my revision!!! ok, i will... 

i keep thinking (sorry for the mix languages), how come certain people just can't stop lying, fooling, and playing with other people's thoughts and feelings... i mean, dont they feel a guilty? it seems like its very easy for them to do so.. i'm bringing up this thing not because i got cheated~~~ no~ no~ but.... i saw people around me... i saw how they got hurt for being lied on... BIG TIME. i saw how they cried... their falling tears... thank goodness Allah gave me a very useful brain to save myself from getting into trouble.... well, i did get into trouble... once... maybe twice?? i think its thrice... haha... kidding...  but anyway, that's in the old book.... bad old days...

i also dont understand how does certain people's mind works... its very easy for them to say that they love someone. like, baru jumpa trus cinta. kalau suka xpa jgk... tapi cinta bhaa cinta... kaitan??? that kind of situation is like depicting that you can pick up love from any mart, any floor, any market you wants... don't you think so? well, its just my personal opinion though.... 

haishh... apalah aku ni.... balik2 blogging kongsi pasal perasaan sndri... bukannya mau share something yang berfaedah... ASTAGHFIRULLAH.... wani2.... *geleng2 kepala... ok la... that's all..

WASSALAM... tusbih alal khair :)

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Peringatan buat diriku.. seorang insan bergelar HAWA...

BISMILLAHIRRAHMANIRRAHIM...

Wahai diri yang bergelar HAWA...

Lumrahnya wanita...

Dalam kelembutan ada ketegasannya...

Dalam kelemahan ada kekuatannya...

Di sebalik senyumnya, tersembunyi dukanya...

Wanita...

ALLAH mengangkat darjatmu setinggi-tingginya...

Jangan kau rendahkan ia menjadi serendah-rendah darjat...

Jangan berikan hatimu semudah itu kepada sesiapa saja...

Jangan lupakan darjatmu kerana terlalu menyayangi...

Jangan rendahkan maruahmu untuk menjaga hati 'dia' yang bukan halal untukmu...

Jangan ikut kata nafsumu...

Jangan turutkan rasa sayangmu...

Kelak kau menyesal... menyesal...  dan tak henti menyesal...

JANGAN SEKALI-KALI KAU LUPA...

ALLAH mengangkat darjatmu wahai wanita...

Maka jagalah darjat itu sebaik mungkin...

Ingatlah walau apa sekalipun... dia yang bukan halal bagimu tidak akan pernah dapat menjaga maruahmu seperti mana ALLAH menjaga maruah dan darjatmu...

Jangan butakan matamu...

Jangan pekakkan telingamu...

Jangan tutup pintu hatimu...

untuk sentiasa mengingati,

HAKIKATNYA,

Hanya ALLAH satu-satunya yang tidak akan pernah meninggalkanmu... yang akan sentiasa membantumu... yang akan sentiasa menjagamu...

Maka tidakkah rasa malu itu patut ada, kerana lebih memikirkan, menjaga, dan menyayanginya lebih daripada sepatutnya, lebih daripada ALLAH?

Sedangkan di kemudian hari kelak, hanya kasih sayang ALLAH SAHAJALAH YANG DAPAT MEMBANTU...

Tetapi mengapa terlalu payah untuk kau sedari?

Renungkan itu wahai wanita...

:'(

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M.O.N.O.L.O.G.U.E.

BISMILLAHIRRAHMANIRRAHIM... ALHAMDULILLAHI RABBIL ALAMIN, WASSALA TU WASSALAMU ALA ASYRAFIL ANBIYA IWAL MURSALIN... WA ALA ALIHI WASOHBIHI AJMAIN...

Sometimes...

you need to step outside...

get some fresh air...

and remind yourself of who you are...

and who you want to be...

the thing is....

I don't even recognise myself...


who I am....


or who I was...


I feel like I'm not me....

I am no longer me....

I feel like I pretended too much...

to be who I am not....

I know this is not the right place for me to say this...

ALLAH, HELP ME...

Help me to find my way BACK TO YOU :'(

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